This week, in thinking about you, you here with me, reading this, I thought about a collage of episodes.
It's the racist cartoon of Serena combined with the Kavanaugh accusation, ovrerlayed with a pitcure of Anita Hill.
It's the overt and yet somehow less overt because it is absorbed and accepted into our daily being of regular ignorances: race, age, sex.
Rinse and repeat.
It's you, me, and every woman I know medicating with alcohol, coffee, marijuana, or more. And to be clear, this is NOT a judgment. It's an observation about how it's not just a solo internal experience. I'm also not necessarily talking about extremities.When I say medicating, I mean lifting the mood in any way without the internal effort. So that's one cup of coffee, one drink, etc. It's that me, you, and everyone we know can't actually not do it. Go ahead, try. It's harder than you want to think to not have any of these little things.
On the upside, it's almost November. And what I mean by that is that we're almost to that point we've been waiting for, where it's time to show up. More than ever before women are running for office. Will they win? You tell me.
Voting is one way of showing up, and it's not the only way. People are showing up all over the place, and it's important. To show up.
Oddly enough, though, showing up is still my problem.
Thankfully, I literally ran into my friend Larry this week in Brooklyn. By ran in, I mean I was running to exercise and ran into him. He seems good and it made me happy to see him. I have to send him my newer tracks. He asked me about labels. I don't even know what that means. guess I'll find out through him. I told him how I realized I've spent alot of energy to create music and no energy to promote it. I shared with him how I ignored the emails from Karel. How I wanted to disappear before I read them. He understood. It's a different energy. somehow. to promote vs. create.
I can share an update about the tracks: Eli sent the mixes and they sound great, so now it's about mastering. Next step.
And of course mastering and videos are more money, more money than I have to create the things I'm envisioning. It's great fuel for continuous retreating. Think limited! Ugh.
Five or so years ago I attended a seminar in NYC where they revealed that on average artists go about $10,000 into debt to support their work. That sounds about right. And I don't know what else to say except we have to do it; we have to make it. We can't stop.
I'm also reminded of this quote from Richard Branson "If somebody offers you an amazing opportunity but you are not sure you can do it, say yes – then learn how to do it later!”
In contrast, right now, there is a Frontline episode on right now about Harvey Weinstein documenting just how long it has taken to address the ugly truth.